everything is so DULL. work is boring, life is boring. i guess im making it boring. *sigh* but i really dont mean to! i haven't started studying for bio, b/c in all honesty. i DON'T KNOW what to study for. there's this girl i know, from my chem class. her name is nicole. and she is SOOOOOOO SMART. smart like no other. she outdoes everyone in class. (almost.) she gets everything without struggle or confusion. she's just, smart! and it's not like she's a nerd or anything, she's totally normal. (probably goes out more than i do!) she's not dumb about life. she has a boyfriend, a job, and she aced almost all her classes. trust me, she didn't get any C's for sure. and worst of all, SHE'S NICE! i look at her, and i want to kick myself in the ass. i talked to her the other day too about our chem class, and i asked her what she was studying, what she was memorizing, and damn. she is just like, SO prepared. seriously tobey, im not lying. i TRIED to study for chem the other night with my sister. but since i really dont have the basics for any of the stuff, i get really lost. do you know how much the freaking book cost?? it cost $153 for the text itself, and another $77 for the lab manual. and there are two other items i need for the class that they bookstore was just out of. in total, all my books cost $378!! is that just plain nutty or what?! it pisses me off you know?! why can't students just rent/check out books like we did in high school? then, if you lose it, you pay for it, if you damage it, you pay for it. that makes sense. that saves money. but WTF!?!? all they want to do is make money. money money money. J.C. it's disgusting. i think about when i transfer out, all the damn money im gonna be owing/paying to actually go to school there. then, just to piss me off, they're gonna take every last cent from me with freaking BOOKS! grrrr. damn money. damn books. i hate the fact that i have to pay off loans when i finally graduate from school. i hate owing money to someone/something. i think about how my moneyhogging grandma has enough money to put me through school, but NOOO. she needs that money to buy all that make up that really does NOTHING, NOTHING for her. i seriously hate this grandma. (not the other one. i like my mom's mom) she's so screwy in the head. just the other night, my mom was telling me how much they hate each other and all the terrible things she did to her when they first married. sure, some bad things may have happened to her, but damn. she is SCREWY, and i can't say i'll cry when she's gone. anyways, i'm tired and done for the night. ttyl.
-karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
