hello.. i missed my political science class this morning. :/ i was a bit puckered out from last night. mentally, i also feel flushed. i realized that attempting to trust new people can be a real effort. i know this seems like a terrible thing to say, but sometimes it just seems easier not meeting people at all. i mean, i dont think i'm antisocial or anything. i think i can be horribly nice when i want to be.. but, actually trying to put trust into someone is tough work. b/c you have no idea who they are you know?
it seems like these days, that no one really wants to be "in love". not that i WANT to be mind you. relationships seem so pointless at this .. er point in life. well, i suppose it's only b/c we're so young. all of us just trying to have a good time. that's why i say it's pointless to go out searching for love, longing for love. love that doesn't exist in such a young age. sometimes i think that i grew up faster than i wanted to. it's funny how things change. i wanted so terribly to be in love at the tender age of 16. and sometimes, now that i'm 20, i still want to feel that way! thank the lord that it's usually only a short period of time i feel that way. now i think it's silly for the most part. i dont know tobey if i'll ever find anyone for myself. my mother laughs when i tell her this. she thinks i'm being young and foolish, and perhaps i am? i don't know. but i just FEEL that i will never be happy with anyone. b/c everyone around me is just raging w/ immaturity! well, okay, not everyone. but immaturity is the majority for the time being. and yeah, well i should know, i was a complete idiot just a few years back. i suppose i still am somewhat of an idiot. anyways, i don't really know why i'm talking about this. i guess im just pissed about not meeting people that are what i consider "halfway normal". guys in particular. hmp. okay, but i'm going to get over that now! (build myself a bridge and get the fuck over it. b/c it ain't coming true anytime soon.)
for my political science class, me and a group of people are doing a presentation panel on the environment. it's a hard thing to argue. thank goodness our topic isn't a debate, or else it would an all out war. of course, you know me. i'm all for the environment. progress vs. conservation? hopefully in the future, there will be a median. i'm surprised at all the information i found out on how president bush is really messing everything up (environmental wise). anyways, it should be an interesting thing to talk about. i'm going to talk about national parks and bio diversity. �
anyways, im going to get ready to go study and stuff myself happy. love like i've never loved before? ha. not a chance. i'm not a fool. (anymore anyway.)
~karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
