how are ya? i'm tired, but i love being a night owl.. so of course, i'm up.. i'll attempt to go to bed in a little bit.
yeah. you know how i told you about trying to be friends with an ex again? my FIRST ex specifically... good god. i don't know if it's the right decision even after all this time... i don't think i'd be able to help him and he surely wouldn't be able to help me either. do i dare state the truth? do i dare?! .... :X i'd feel like such a jerk for saying what i would say... even though what i feel inside is so genuine.. ack. i just can't let it out here. i'm coming to a conclusion that i've come across in the past already... which is that, i'm the jerk. christ. i don't know what to do with myself at times.
in happier words, today was a pretty good day! i woke up, took frank to the shelter to get apps. ate lunch with jed and ben.. and we studied at the library for a little bit. well, edmond just drew funny pictures of unrealistic looking girls. i guess i shouldn't really say "unrealistic" since, girls that look like that really do exsist.. i would have to scratch that and replace with 'plastic surgeried out' girls.. (is surgeried even a word? i bet you $100 bucks its NOT! oh well, what do i care..) then... ben went to class and me and jed went to use my starbucks gift card. hehe. i still have a good ten dollars left! we rented two movies at blockbuster after.. 'the 25th hour' and 'old school'. we watched 'the 25th hour' first b/c i insisted. i thought the movie was worth watching.. but again.. *sigh* i donno. i've seen better going to prison movies. i guess this one just focused more on the feeling you get BEFORE you actually go in.. all the wants and regrets... i thought it was alright! not too shabby, with a few scenes that really made us laugh. we're supposed to watch 'old school' tomorrow. i hope it's funny... i'm desperately in the need for a comedy. *sigh* life life life... why must you be SO cruel to the ones that aren't strong enough? just a small request... be nicer to those that are standing on the edge.. i'm trying to help, but i'm truly beginning to get angry. you know how i am. i despise people without inner strength. it makes me SO angry that some people live so blindly, and in such ignorance! but what can i do for them? keep feeding them the advice that they refuse to swallow? they keep regurgitating everything i tell them, and WON'T OPEN THEIR EYES.. what can i do? except, let them learn the hard way.. i can't help someone, who refuses to be helped... well, this night owl.. must receed for the night! so i guess i can't really call myself that anymore.. good night tobey. sweet dreams. :)
~karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
