hey you.. i just got back from a LONG study session by myself @ barnes! there were random vistors here and there, but you know.. i know all the regulars that visit barnes and noble now. like fasil, i see him almost EVERYtime i go to barnes and noble! but he's really funny and a great friend so it's always nice to see him. :) i got a LOT done today though, so i'm feeling really good. we also had our first chem experiment today, and we got to work in pairs! me and my partner got really nice crystals, so we were happy. it was interesting too--we isolated the active ingredient in asprin.
oh yeah, regarding yesterdays entries.. i was the one at fault for that! i dont know why i jumped at conclusions so fast last night, (to be exact, it was precisely 2 minutes for me to jump in) and it turns out I was the one who made the mistake and made the wrong assumption! i shouldn't have done that, and now i feel very guilty.. :X well, it's a lesson learned anyhow... and maybe things are even better than they were before this, since everyone talked everything out.
things i learned from this experience:
01. don't jump to conclusions! don't be paranoid, especially when it's a topic that you are unsure of. "when in doubt, don't try it out."
02. control my damn temper... that's for sure. i guess, when i get mad.. i get really mad. i don't like to hide my feelings. so i let it all out.. and you know what they say about anger. "anger is only temporary insanity". which i feel that i totally was last night! and any other time i get angry.
03. don't be too much of a good thing. of anything. b/c too much anything, is definately a bad thing. being too good of a friend, or trying to be too good of a friend, is certainly not going to benefit either sides. i tend to care TOO much about the things/people i really care about. i think it's overbearing. it's funny b/c i put that upon others, but i hate it being done to me. friends that are overbearing and too dependent.. i hate that! they end up annoying the crap out of me. ultimately, the only person i should care for insanely... is me, myself, and i. well, and family included! actual, blood related family i mean. friends should be a support system, not parents. friends should support what you do, whether it be good or bad (well, unless you're planning or murder or something. that's just overdoing it now!).. friends, should just BE there for each other, whatever the moment calls for. friends should watch out for each other and give good solid open minded advice. but not keep their friends on choke chains. yup, i've been violating all of the above with many people. i get so mad when my friends don't think like i do.. which is really stupid of me to think such a strange thought.. b/c we're all different and we all go through different experiences. and we're all gonna respond to those experiences in our own ways no matter what others tell us.
anyhow.. 03 good life lessons learned. and maybe even some friendships salvaged. :) can't say i'm upset with that.. now i really need to finish up my biology homework! so you take care of yourself tobey.. and i'll be talking with you laters! bye dear.
<3
karen
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