how's everything? WOW. the hell i've created is OVER. the battle, the war, the horrid ugliness of procrastination and the long tiring nights of studying for finals are OVER!!! it was so horrible tobey, i cannot even begin to explain to you what my life has been like for the past few days. sunday night, i studied with kim pretty late. until 3ish, then i slept for 3 hours and i studied more until i had to take my calc final.. which i donno how i did at all. :( i dont even feel confident that i passed the class. what else.. after that, i took the bio final. which turned out to be CAKE! it was easyyyy. all of his previous tests were so hard before too. esp. the first one! i think he really tries to weed out the people that have no determination and don't try. cause damn, that final was freaking easy! i was so happy. then he took us all out to eat pizza! isn't that nice? so me and kim and michelle bought him something from 'hickory farm', since he always talks about food. lol. he's really funny! i'm really glad i had him for biology. and i have him next semester too for the second half of it! i'm gonna go drop off his thank you present tomorrow then help judy and katelyn study for their bio final.. and yup!! work 4 - 10. i'm so happy. SO HAPPY! last night i studied with kim and brandon at dennys AGAIN... i was so damn tired by 3 in the morning though. i couldnt handle it. my body was a MESS. i tried desperately to stay awake.. but i was SO damn tired from the night before.. so i went home to sleep. and WOW- it was amazing! i've never put my head down on my pillow and fallen asleep almost instantly. everything just shut down so fast. i remember myself thinking about how fast i was falling asleep right before... then suddenly, i just was. the ochem final was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard. i cannot describe how terrible i think i did. i may have to stay at saddleback one more year if i dont pass this class. i mean, i HAVE TO.. pass this class. and a C is not passing for biology majors. if i dont pass.. i dont know what i'm going to do?! i feel like such a failure right now. and failure, is not a damn option!!!! it's so sad how all my friends think that i'm "smart". i'm sooooo NOT! it's so sad when people think you're smart but you're really doing poorly. it seems like for these classes, i study and study and study and try and try and try so hard, and i still do badly. i dont understand! i know it's b/c i procrastinate a lot.. but damn, i study a lot overall and i'm damn determined. well, for the most part anyway. but you know what? "smart" people, aren't that smart anyway usually. "smart" people, are the people that use their BRAINS to realize that all they need do to.. is just simply study. of course, there are exceptions to the rule (i.e. kent) this boy.. oh my word. he's a freaking genious! he BARELY studies.. and .. oh god. i dont even want to talk about it. i'm so jealous! damn. im just glad it's freaking over. stress free is the way to beee and a new fresh start next semester to prove myself. that's all i'm looking forward to! me and jed are gonna take out ben for his bday this saturday, so yeah! major grub time, and for goodness sake. NOT at dennys. i've practically made it my second home. 3 nights in a row at dennys really does not do good things for yourbody. anyway. must go! must sleep. ttyl !
<3 karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
