sheesh. whoever said "life is a rollercoaster" sure was right. i don't like it! good god. does it ever end? can one just be content and happy? satisfied? if not school, then it's life and emotional BS. if it's not life, then it's school. i can't stand either one and just go bouncing from one to the other. as of the moment, i can't wait to go back to school and get freaking good grades this time. i might be at saddleback for another year.. freaking A! i just feel so.. squished right now. people always telling me to do things. do this. do that. SHUT UP! i don't want to do any of those things. and god knows how stubborn i am--it will only make me do it more to piss them off. i have a solid wall of pride that i refuse to put down. maybe that's dumb.. but I DONT CARE.
here goes my schedule for spring 2004. mondays/weds: calculus - 7:30 - 9. humanities - 10:30 - 12. tuesdays/thurs: o-chem - 7:30 - 12. biology 1-6. and i am FOR SURE, going to leave sanrio at the end of january/mid feb. cause i need kick butt in school this semester. i'm talking.. i NEED straight A's to raise my sad 3.0 GPA. i'm going to apply to work at the biology lab or chem lab.. just to have SOME source of income.. for gas and stuff like that.. i hate working when i really need the time to study... i was watching some stuff on tv the other day about paris hilton and her sister.. and it just pissed me off! all they are, are full-time BRATS. i can't believe they get EVERYTHING. i look at things like that in the world, and wonder how anyone could NOT support communism. yeah yeah. i know. it DOESNT WORK.. but i sure as hell wish it did. sucks for us little guys huh?
i do believe that i made a new years resolution to stop cursing so much. well. I JUST DONT GIVE A DAMN ANYMORE! life just couldn't suck more than it does right this very moment. i wanna get outta here. out of OC. away from everyone.
i ate dinner with jayv today at cheesecake on a lighter note. it was yummy.. i had a really good time with her! hopefully me her and maria can go to a bar this week. b/c me and jayv really need to go to a bar. DESPERATELY. all i've been doing is eating my entire break. last night i went to fridays with mike jed and ben, and i was so full from my previous dinner that i just couldn't eat anymore. ben is such a monster! he ate his food and almost all of mine. even jed didn't finish his food.
oh bother. the world is a mess and so am i. i'm going to bed.
<3 karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
