hello! today has been a pretty good day. i went to school. i worked 10 - 3. and after i met up with my friend and we ate at macaronni grill. after that i went to his house for a little bit and we played with some of our other friends.. i left to pick up little sis sarah and take her to piano lessons then went to friend diane's house to give her history notes then on to barnes and noble to study for japanese! but what i was thinking about today was the ever so confusing subject: love. strong word isnt? lately though... in this word it seems only like a dream. people misuse the word so much that it has lost meaning. to me love is (or atleast being IN love) something truly unique and special. love isn't loving someone for 3 months and then saying.. hey, you bug me when you do this and that and if you dont change then im leaving! what kind of love is that? that definitley ISNT love. it makes me angry really. especially because i've been decieved with love an enough number of times. people dont really know what love is and they just THINK they love that person... but they really dont and just end up hurting each other in the end.
loving someone is supposed to be for forever right? if loving someone means just loving them one week or 3 years... whats that? doesnt that make love NOT love? i mean, doesnt that make love so unspecial. its not true love is what i mean. atleast thats what i think. i also think loving someone means loving the person for who they are. when you're in love you dont try to change the person. you accept them. faults and all. when you're in love, the person you love isn't perfect. they become perfect in your eyes.
"a person in love mistakes a pimple for a dimple"
i mean, you know all their faults and realize them, but for some reason it doesnt matter anymore. thats what makes love unique. but i dont know. i do believe in love. but its so hard to find! and it's completeley injustifiable how many guys use the word love just to satisfy their "needs". it's not fair. what i've basically figured out is that most guys in highschool and college just ARENT ready for commitment. they still want to have their fun and be able to flirt and mingle, but at the same time.. they want someone to be able to understand them. and they want someone to sleep with. its not fair really. so i mean in my eyes. why see any guy as a potential boyfriend now when they arent ready to commit anyway? now it seems like every guy i know or meet is just a friend and will always be JUST A FRIEND. and hey, that's good to me. atleast i'll always be on good terms with them and i wont have any of those guy problems. although i do admit, i really do miss having a boyfriend. i've learned to deal with it by telling myself when couples walk by, that it WONT last. (and sometimes it's true) and that people who are all lovey dovey dont see anything past their boyfriend/girlfriend. although i know thats not always the case (although most times it is). well, i've been blabbering quite long now... so i suppose it's time for me to disperse... carrots in.. peas out!
<3 Karen
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