hi there tObey. today i worked 10-3. which during my break i got in yet another tense word match with a friend. which was somewhat resolved afterwards because one person put down their pride and also because they had some shopping to do. hmph. fair enough. then, we did some eating at rubys* when there i saw some old "friends". that's the understatement of the year! anyways, after that, we went to fashion island to get something from the sharper image, and we also went to see the puppies! those poor poor puppies. :( i donno. i was so sad to see those poor doggies in the cramped cages.. and plus i'm 99.99% sure most of those pups came from puppy mills. actually, i am SURE of it. i mean, think about it. are pet shops going to go out of their way and pay $800-1000 for one puppy and then sell it for the same price? NO! they get it in masses for cheap from puppy mills. and i hope everyone knows that's a NO NO! don't buy puppies from the pet shop! they are ill-bred and overpriced, i promise i can find you a better deal from a responsible breeder! and i promise you it will be a hell of a lot healthier as well. those poor puppies. they are just the innocent victims of GREED. and they are the ones that have to suffer because humans want money. they are the ones that have to live in pain, and probably death because of humans that are so selfish.. all they care about is themselves. it makes me mad yannO? and sometimes, i just can't believe it. i can't believe that any one could be that way. so selfish, that they would hurt others to get what they want. it's a cold and cruel shock, that i'm still wakening from. it's like a horrid ugly disease, and it spreads like wildfire. HUMAN NATURE, it's just an oxymoron. it's a big joke. it's really sad. :( ok! but i will not be depressed by these thoughts. brain, stop functioning. i will cease these wild ideas.
ok, so after fashion island, i went back to my dOghOuse and me, sushi, and flower power went to go watch "the bourne identity" and i guess i just expected too much out of the movie. let's just say the only thing that made the movie worth watching was seeing matt damon.. i mean, it wasn't a horrible horrible movie, but i just hated the ending. everything was so pointless! but anyways, yeah. go see for yerself. and now i am at home. typing my life away... thinking my life away..
in particular, thinking about this "special" friend of mine. i know, i know now that it just doesnt matter anymore. i tried, and you tried. and we both put in good effort, but its just.. not the same. and it makes me really sad too yanno. thinking about (i've been looking so long at these pictures of you, that i almost believe that they're real) everything. our past, and how everything has changed SO MUCH.(i've been living so long with my pictures of you, that i almost believe that the pictures are all i can feel) i think that i am departing to that state again. only where the lowest of the low are allowed to roam aimlessly. at some rare times, i sit and think upon old memories. i don't think about why or how.. i just think back on past life, and remember how i felt. all the laughter and the smiles, that we used to share. even the fights, physical and mental. how insanely stupid some of them were, and how heavy and emotional a few of them got. okay, maybe more than a few. and i wonder why we can't go back. it's just too late. (remembering you, falling into my arms. crying for the death of your heart. you were always so lost in the dark. *don't you know, i was always crying with you.*)too late to save the friendship that's already lost, because we've both been consumed by our own lives. lives, like departing ships.. go their seperate ways. but its funny, because our lives were so together once. it's so strange how things can change. (remembering you, you were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow. and now you've finally found all your courage to let love go.) i really miss what used be. times like these, is when i miss him most. times like these, is when i wish we'd never met.
<3 me. (the cure/pictures of you)
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
