gosh! i am so frustrated right now. i don't know what the hell to amount my life up to. i want to be able to have a sucessful career where i can support myself and enjoy my job to the fullest possible limit. but the only thing i've ever truly had a passion for is animals. i am sort of interested in teaching, maybe an english teacher? but i'm not so sure about the pay and if i've got what it takes to do that. it's funny, i think i've got what it takes to be a vet even though it's so much harder than being a teacher.. and yet, what could be much simpler for me.. i don't think i got it. i think i ought to just go visit vet's around the city and ask them questions, kind of like an interview.. but i mean, i went to the animal planet forum where they do the show 'emergency vets' and there is this one doctor there, his name is kevin fitzgerald, and he stated that he didn't even get accepted into vet school on his first application and that many don't. then 8 YEARS later, he got accepted. and now he's this famous vet.. but you see, i haven't got all that money to just waste! i mean, my sister wants to be a doctor also. and i mean, ok. if i stay at saddleback for two more years, i could have enough to transfer to UC Davis, there i would do the undergraduate program for vet medicine. which would take me anywhere from 2 - 4 years. after that, i would go to graduate school.. which is another 3 years of school, plus a year of intership. and what if amist all that, i DONT MAKE IT? it's scary! i mean, i'm willing to take all the classes, but i simply can't afford to risk all that money if i'm not garaunteed a spot as a vet. and dear tobey, i know i am thinking way into the future here. but i do plan to get married someday and have kids. if i do become a successful vet, what kind of family life am i going to have balancing that sort of hectic job with CHILDREN?? i mean, it just seems like being a teacher is a much simpler and even wiser choice. but i don't know. i mean, i love to read, and i like to write.. and sometimes i can write pretty well IF i put time into it. but i don't really have knack for it like others that i know. and yes! that bothers me immensly because i believe this quote strongly. "the cream of the crop always rises to the top." and i simply don't believe that i am part of that cream when it comes to english. i mean, yeah i like it more than the average folk, but i don't think i have a passion for it. i know what my passion is. but i don't know what to do with it. and how it will affect my lifestyle in the future. ahh.. i dont know what to do.. it's scaring me! not quite sure what to do.. good luck to i.
<3 a nervOus dOggy
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
