hello! i just got back home, and guess what?! our chem test is postponed AGAIN! it's gonna be after spring break now.. i'm happy but a bit annoyed toO? she always postpones the test... i mean, i'm happy b/c i have more time to study for it.. (kinda) but now when i get back from spring break i'm gonna have a chem test, a bio test, and a trig test all in one week! one day after the other. mannNn.... that stinks. so all i have to worry about this week is my poly sci midterm, which i don't think is gonna be too much of a tough cookie. spring break is in one WEEK! wHooo... i'm happy. even though i'm not going anywhere fUn FUN persay.. but i'm still excited about seeing UCSC, UCSB, and the other schools. we did our group 2 ions (unknown) in chem lab today and i got mine right! wHooOo.. i was happy. :) and can you believe it? she's gonna let us use our notes and stuff for our general unknown!! that's craziness man. for chem 1a, we couldn't even TALK to each other. she's so mellow. it's good and bad. it's good for an easy grade but bad as a learning experience. i seriously learned so much in chem 1a. anyways, my little emily is getting kinda chubby! hehe. we feed her so much b/c she's the "favored" one. i love my little emily! oh i finally got my oil change done today, and you know how i have a picture of whiskers (my first rattie) on my thing infront of my steering wheel? well, those weirdos put my picture down. i was like ......... they always do that?! i guess they don't like my whiskers. stupid ignorant people! close minded idiots. gRrr. people are so stupid i swear. and they refuse to see anything other peoples way. damn. i hate people like that. (which is like most of the whole public)
oy, anyways! mr. star, which i i have named appropriately, is quite strange. very much like a pervert, yes. and to be frank, i don't like him. i don't like guys that are just out for themselves. and that's exactly what it's about. but i'm not an idiot. at least, not anymOre! i have learned. learned quite hard i might add. certain guys are deceiving. they are not who they seem... i don't think that i'm a person who hates guys b/c i've been hurt. no. i truly don't hate guys, contrary to what some people think. i just hate guys who are just out for their yucky "needs". i mean, i think i have a pretty good amount of guy friends and i'm not prejudiced against them. especially the ones i have known for a long time. i think of them as my friends. almost like brothers some of them. i just think at this age, it's just wiser to keep boys as friends (even new ones). b/c it's obvious some of them can't think before acting. and i don't think that's a wrong assumption to make........ do you tobey? even though i have dubbed you a male name.. you are of neither sex. you are simply the other side of my mind. i'm not saying they are unintelligent, i'm saying as a boyfriend, they are untrustworthy. that's why they all make so much nicer friends. and you know what, the same could go for a female as well. i know some girls that are pretty, er.. wild. i dont know though, that's just not me. aHhh, relationships are just too confusing at this age. it's funny b/c i have some girl friends that are so lonely, and so longing for a boyfriend. but sometimes i wonder why they long for that ALL THE TIME. i understand what it's like to be alone, but i dont think that necessarily means your life is empty and meaningless without a boyfriend. actually, i believe that you must be alone for a certain period of time to learn certain things about yourself. i also believe in being happy own your own. b/c that certain someone isn't always always gonna be there (even after marriage. TRUST ME). and besides, there are other things that are important in life, like family and friends! and besides the other things in life that put a smile on your face, *you must love yourself truly, before you learn to love another.* what i mean by truly.. is that you must see the mirror image of yourself. not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. you should be able to find your flaws and be able to accept them (if in the case that they are unchangable--and i don't mean surgically either!!!) and above all, be content with who you are. it's important to me that this happened b/c i don't want to cheat myself or anyone else. b/c truly, you are only cheating someone else, and ultimately yourself by being unaware of what you are. i'll leave you with that tobey, and i'll be studying for my poly sci midterm!!
~karen
"nothing's so loud, as hearing when we lie. the truth is not kind, and you've said 'neither am i.' and the air outside so soft is saying everything. all i want, is to feel this way. the evening speaks, i feel it say..
nothing's so cold, as closing the heart when all we need is to free the soul. but we wouldn't be that brave i know. and the air outside so soft confessing everything. everything. all i want, is to feel this way, to feel this close, to feel the same. the evening speaks, i feel it say..
and it won't matter now, whatever happens will be. it won't trouble me.
let it free the soul, i can feel it say."
(toad the wet sproket - all i want) �
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
