i'm a bit drunk at the moment, and yet i thought of you. i just got home from pam's party. it's about 3am. i work at 10 tomorrow dammit! i don't feel that great. aRghh. i had 5 shots of bicardi? yUCKYUCKYUCKYUCKYYUCKYUCK!! i hate hate hate bicardi. it gives me the chills just thinking about it you know? damn. but it was fun. me ben edmond mike and caroline went. caroline didn't drink, but it was cool. i feel like such a retard. well, after my third shot... i didnt feel anything, so i had two more.. then.. i got messed up. :/ i know i know. i should have listened to my friends.. but i saw my chem girls and they were all drunk and having a blast, so i thought i'd joined em? now i know, conformity doesn't head in the right direction. i am tired, sleepy, wasted, feeling a little nauseated as well. i want to barf, but i dont want to barf. get what i mean? i FEEL like puking, but i DONT WANT to puke. therefore. i will not puke. nope. nononono. i guess im writing b/c i dont want to go to sleep drunk. b/c if i do that, i will wake up with a hang over. i think i can type enormously well for being pretty buzzed yeah? i'm shocking myself. eww, and i found some things out tonight toO. this one guy from my chem class. yuCkO. he knew i was drunk, and he tried to dance w/ me and i donno. i felt TERRIBLY grossed out. i told him i was going outside. YCKYUCKCYUKYUKYUCK!!! guys are freaking disgusting man. now i will really feel weird around him in chem class. i sort of wish i hadn't gone you know? i sort wish i just stayed home. i donno. i'm really not a party kind of girl.. i'm just not. i like relaxing at home. i'm sucha nerd, but thats who i am. i guess what i'm trying to say is that i just shoudlnt have drank so much. i should have stuck to 3 shots. and i would have had a good buzz, but instead i got messed up. arghh. i'm not proud of myself, and i really hope i learn from this. i'm really thankful to ben and edmond. they are such good friends to me. they are like brothers to me. i love them both to death. and i'll always be there for them for whatever. i appreciate their friendship so much. i want us to know each other for the rest of our lives. that's how much their friendship means to me. they really deserve the best of everything in this world, and i really hope those two find happiness... i want them to be happy. i think im going to cry tobey. they are such good guys. okay, i know i'm still buzzed... but i think i shoudl go to sleep b/c i have to wake up at least by 9 tomorrow. i hope i can manage to drag myself into the shower. good night tobey. i love yOU lots as well!!
~karen
p.s. i hate alcohol, i hate boys! (cept my friends of course!)
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