hey there. how are you? i'm ok.. so yesterday was prom night for all the seniors at aliso..! as for me, i met up with the non-prom goers and we just hung it at spectrum.. then went to rj's house. i'm taking my drinks better. i had 4 shots and i was fine in three hours. :) well, that may be nothing to you readers! but i don't drink often and usually i can have about 2 and be gone the rest of the night! but i guess that's necesarily not a good thing eh? that just means by body is getting used to alcohol consumption.. which is basically posioning my body.. so yeah! i guess it's bad! oh well, i don't really do it very often yanno? i met some interesting people at rj's house and had some interesting talks and games. hehe. i also saw a lovey dovey couple kiss for like 15 seconds! actually, it was a bit gross. taught rj's cousin justin how to play a duet song on the piano, played 10 fingers (i had 6 left in the end? i cant remember), downloaded some songs on rj's computer.. (yeah rj, if you read this, and you're wondering who downloaded "the cure" and "the faint" hehe.. yeah SORRY!) but all in all, it was a good night. so i was happy. but earlier in the day my sister sushi had her little party at home, and it was fun! i like her friends. they are pretty funny.. i'm glad that my little sister is really into church and school. i never have to worry about her. she's a great little sister! i'm gonna take her shopping this thursday as a gift. woohOoo.. i get my paycheck tomm and since i worked like 71 hours!!! yeah. im happy :).
i happened to see "he who will not be named" at jon's house. i was happy for him.. b/c of the ways things turned out. still.. when i saw him. i felt that bitterness again. that little slight feeling of bitterness and hate that could overcome my happiness in a mere few seconds. it was horrible! but i kept it under control. he says i dont try.. i guess he's right. maybe i don't try. b/c i just can't forgive him for everything he's done to me. it's too much to ask of a person. i don't try.. i don't try b/c i thought i made it clear that i wanted everything to be the same. no regrets yanno? and when it wasn't.. i blamed it on him. so now. i don't try. if he's gonna half ass the friendship, so will i. in fact, i'll do worse. i'll just forget about it all together. i wont call. i wont bother him. he'll be a perfect ghost to me. cause if we're gonna half ass it. then forget it. i dont want none of it. it's all or nothing.. and obviously.. it can't go back to best friends forever and ever... *sigh* things are just best left undone.
<3 Karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
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In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
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