hey yOu! guess what? tomorrow, dashboard confessional is going to be at the El Rey Theater in l.a. taping the music video to 'saints and sailors' (only my favorite song!) and we (the audience) get to be in it!! wOohOo!! my coworker vanessa invited me, and i'm bringing margO along also. :) it's going to be way fun!! im really excited! anyways, today i worked.. then took a nap. afterwards, i picked up friend danny, and we went to study at barnes and noble. later then ... ben came, and we all ate at wahOos. it was yum. now i am home. writing my thoughts.. and discussing my day.. with you once again.
korea got fourth place in the world cup. oh well, i'm still way proud of them! they did well! brazil and germany will be playing sometime early tomorrow morning.. (just in a few hours..!) gOod luck to the both of you teams!!
me? mentally? emotionally? i guess i'm feeling better these days. even though, i still think on old memories.. and still get sad.. and still miss old friendships. it's okay. of course, when i can't deal with it. you're always there. heh. but i donno.. yanno that one day i might that list of goals i wanted to achieve? it's seemingly getting tougher to achieve. some of them anyway.. it's hard to try and not be selfish. when that's all i have been for the past years of my life. there are times when i hate existing. because of all the ugliness in the world. but of course, as we all know.. there is no beauty without a flaw. there is no joy without sorrow. and no pleasure without pain. there are good and bad's to everything in life. and i suppose human nature.. with generousity, comes selfishness. i guess what i don't comprehend.. is how we let the selfishness get so horribly bad. when ppl let it overtake their minds to the point where lives are at stake. how can people do such a thing? that is where i draw the line. that is where i'd rather live like an animal. that is when i damn all of human nature to hell. not humans mind you.
as for you.. the anger that lies in my heart, overtakes my mind. although, i know.. it's only for this brief moment. i'm so damn angry. i am now trying harder then ever to fix things. to rebuild everything. i put my pride down, and said it very bluntly. what i want. i've done everything i can.. so don't you say to me that i haven't tried. cause it's YOU who doesn't want it to be the same. cause i'm trying! ugh. so you know what? after tomorrow. i give up. i'm not going to try... cause it's only a futile act. so now i CAN say.. that i have tried my best.
okay, well i guess i'm gonna go get ready for an exciting day tomorrow. good night and good riddance! (sorry.. it's not meant for YOU persay..)
<3 Karen
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
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In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
