Hi sweetheart. I'm feeling better. I guess it's because it a weird way, I took action on the situation and decided to find out things for myself. I was really hesitant about doing it at first, but I knew that if I didn't do it, I would continue to regret not doing it due to fear. And I don't live my life in regret. My life isn't here so that I can spend it being sad. Neither is anyone else's!
So... I'm hopefully inching my way towards the finish line. And I hope I can trust this person 110% like I once did. I think I will still have my moments of thought where I'll be sad about it.. but I hope those moments of thought become fewer until they completely disappear. It's just hard when it's the 3rd chance. Second chances are easy. And love is such a funny thing...
I forgot to mention that I did something fun on Sunday! I dropped of Suey back at UCLA and we met up with Hen Hen the Dalmation at a Japanese restaurant. It was yummyyy. I love Japanese food SO MUCH! I love hanging out with my sister because I feel like she's the only one I can really be totally silly with. Well. Cory too. hehe. And I don't get to hang out with Henry that much either since we are both not in Orange County anymore. And he's too much fun to make fun of!! hehe.
This is also another weird thought, but I miss hanging out with Johnny too! He was my sister's boyfriend but they broke up a few months ago.. I used to always hang out with them and he's a cool guy. I hope he doesn't hate me or anything. I don't think he does, but I guess it's only natural to slowly stop talking because I'm her sister. I hope he knows it doesn't have to be that way though! And I'm sure Suey would want to be friends too.. but I know everyone takes their own time learning and growing.. I truly only wish the best for him because I think he is awesome! And an ended relationship doesn't change that fact.
I'm pretty much deathly afraid of my animal physiology teacher. He freaks me out with his intelligence. Seriously. The guy knows too much. It's scary.
Okay. I need to start studying. I wish school were over forever! It stinks. I'd rather do this!
Good night Tobey. Leaving you with one.
<3 Karen
FIONA APPLE: Slow Like Honey
You moved like honey in my dream last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning
You came near to me and you endeared to me
But you couldn't quite discern me
Does that scare you?
I'll let you run away
But your heart will not oblige you
You'll remember me like a melody
Yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you
And my big secret -- gonna win you over
Slow like honey, heavy with mood
I'll let you see me, I'll covet your regard
I'll invade your demeanor
And you'll yield to me like a scent in the breeze
And you'll wonder what it is about me
It's my big secret -- keeping you coming
Slow like honey, heavy with mood
Though dreams can be deceiving
Like faces are to hearts
They serve for sweet relieving
When fantasy and reality lie too far apart
So I stretch myself across, like a bridge
And I pull you to the edge
And I stand there waiting
Trying to attain
The end to satisfy the story
Shall I release you?
Must I release you?
As I rise to meet my glory
But my big secret --
gonna hover over your life
gonna keep you reaching
when I'm gone like yesterday
when I'm high like heaven
when I'm strong like music
Cause I'm slow like honey, and heavy with mood
Moving - Sunday, Mar. 02, 2008
Rambles and Kansas! - Thursday, Feb. 07, 2008
In Manhattan, Kansas! - Sunday, Jan. 20, 2008
Minnesota! - Saturday, Jan. 12, 2008
First Interview!!! - Wednesday, Nov. 28, 2007
