Hi love! This year's Thanksgiving was very very awesome... I love spending time with Yura and Daniel's family. They are great! Their parents have always been so sweet. They are basically the only relatives that we have living in California. If you want to even call them that. Basically, their mom is our mom's cousin. I don't know what that makes us in relation to Daniel and Yura... but we definitely consider them family. =) Yura is married to Tony and they now have three kids! Jason, James and Emily. Daniel is married to Sandra and they also have three kids. Nathan, Ryan and Michelle. So Thanksgiving dinner at their house was filled with children of course. I remember when Yura and Tony were just getting married almost 8 years ago! It seems like only yesterday I was watching them walk down the aisle... It's amazing how fast time speeds by you. I remember when Jason and Nathan were just teeny weeny kids... and it's been wonderful to watch them grow up. Jason has always been the bold one... and he still is! This year he still marched right up to us to say hello without fear. Hopefully I will get to babysit for them and see those kiddies more often! =)
Our cousin and aunt were here also.. so it was great to see them!! Family is such a wonderful thing... after Thanksgiving dinner, we all went to the theater to watch Casino Royale 007, the new James Bond movie. Daniel Craig played a surprisingly wonderful James Bond. It's hard for me to see a dark blonde play a James Bond, but with his attitude, he was able to portray his character quite well. During the previews they showed an upcoming flick for Rocky Balboa and it caused quite a commotion in the theater... haha! I couldn't help laughing myself. I mean... how can you NOT laugh! Especially at Sylvester Stallone's way of speech as his character... My little sister Sarah could only say... "I don't get it..." that's when I get to say, "this is beyond your time!" Also during the commercial showings... I saw a commercial for ktla... and they were playing Breakestra's Stand Up!! I was so excited, I nearly fell off my chair. Hooray for them for getting more publicity! Love that band with all my heart and with what my soul will give. They are simply amazing! I also saw Stranger Than Fiction with Suey today after some studying. I thought it was a great movie! Very funny and entertaining... Will Ferrel did a great job playing a more serious role and I think the message was great. A lot of movies try to relay the same message across but without the success of an impressionable impact on the audience. This really hit home for me... on enjoying your life to the fullest capacity... that death is always present... and to always pay your taxes, in full! hehe. =)
I always do a lot of thinking while I'm driving alone. I did much driving this weekend since I picked up Suey from UCLA and dropped her off... I feel a undeniable conviction for what's happened to me as a milestone in the journey of my life. I realize and see things... every single day. Some of these thoughts are also thoughts from previous thinkings... I'm also writing about these things because I want to document my thoughts and remember them for future reference...
Since I kept questioning myself "what if", why didn't I question the other person involved, the same questions? I only pointed the fingers at myself. It's easy to place all the blame on your own because you can plainly see what you did, therefore, you can only plainly judge your actions. Whereas if you judge someone else.. you are more likely to give them the benefit of a doubt because you don't know in full their actions and thoughts like you know your own. You forget to cut yourself some slack. Or at least, that's how it was for me. But I was able to question the other party as well in the end... and asked myself, "what if he never had broken our trust to begin with?" Maybe things would have been completely different. And because of that knowledge, I realized that it wasn't all my fault. Things might have been, great, wonderful, awesome between us if he never had done wrong either. And the same goes for me also. If I had reacted differently to the situation, things might have been great, wonderful and awesome too.
But that's NOT how things happened. It's NOT what either of us chose. And for me, I learned a great deal of things that HAD TO be learned.. I hope he did too, so that we're both better people for our next relationships that we encounter. Hence the importance of timing in the matters of love. I do believe that I'm a much better person because of this experience and for that, I'm grateful. I know that we are both wonderful people, otherwise, we would not have endured our relationship for more than two years. Why else did we try? Because we thought the other was worth it. At some point and time, Michael believed that I was the right girl for him and I believed that he was the right guy for me. At some point and time, we ran into events that turned the situation ugly, and we did try. But we saw things that had happened that couldn't be overlooked or forgiven anymore. But that doesn't mean that we became worse people.... I don't think worse of Michael at all.
When I was initially trying to get over Michael.. I kept trying to tell myself that he was the wrong guy for me because of WHO HE WAS (when I wrote The Flavors Concept of Love). I don't really think that anymore.... I believe that our timing was off, that a sequence of events led to the inevitable, and we both still had some learning to do. I am glad I learned it with Michael. I truly mean that...
Good night TB. =)
<3 Karen
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